don’t forget it

or let it slip and slide on

life is precious

time is watching

I hold my mothers head up and remind her what she did

like I was her father and she was my kid

she took care of what she had to

gave him his pride and saved his dignity

when his strength wasn’t there to support his own weight

she is her own judge but I thinks she gets an A

he made it to every thanksgiving, watched Oregon become number one through

clean glasses and listened to my music with hearing aids that worked.

My grandfather was a code carrying signal man who left home at 17 to fight the war in the Pacific

payed a good friend to pass his swimming test to join the Navy.

Walked into hell def from the call of duty screaming in his ear.

Over there.

We found his code book.

Read his love letter to my grandmother.

He saved the 1944 christmas dinner menu from his ship.

We ate and saw ciggarettes listed next to the desserts.

He was afraid but knew his path.

I am afraid and know mine.

I will walk in his footsteps.

lesson learned.

peaces.

G

Altitude shifts can change your perspective on life.  Clarity comes with thin air.  At least when the Valley you run through is Sacred.  My journeys from sea level to barely breathe while you eat level has taught me a lot.  Having a bruised rib humbled me before the mountains got a chance to.  And when it was their turn I truely thought I might die.

But I climbed for Ted Lee.  I knew it was a place he would have told me I was crazy for trying to summit.  A castle in the sky.  Shedding long lost tears doesn’t help you breath any by the way, but when I reached the top it became very clear to me that I hadn’t quite let him go yet.

So I did.  And I feel better.  I kicked my addiction and said good bye to a close friend.

I saw the current state of my heart and realized how warm and ready it was.

I fought through moments of total depression and self doubt, asking myself questions that I know you think of too.

like…  Do you love you?   and if so then why?

I also realized how good of a grip on my direction I already have,  and where I want to take my ship.

I’ve smoked tobacco for far too long.  Its nothing I’ve been proud of and been a major issue deep inside my brain.

Its grounding qualities kept me interested until I quit recently.  I’m on day sixteen and plan on keeping it this way.

All I want right now is to be home.
I love to travel.  Love to be inspired.

But I love home a whole lot more.

And I am blessed to be from Eugene, Oregon.

And I am going to crush the mic on Thursday at the Crown Room when I get back.

I ran this morning.  Hard.

Through the freshness that only my home has.

Like a wolf.

My feet echoed off the trees like kicks and snares.

My breath was like an open high hat.

I ran till my nerves accepted the now.

The now being this journey to Peru.

The now is separating from my reality, and growing more.

Stronger.

Till I reach the steps of Machu Picchu and climb them.

18,000 ft.

I understand that it’s going to happen just how it’s supposed to.

That I can only control what I want to make happen, by using my actions and thoughts.

The rest of it is up to the universe really.

To complain about it or not try to work with it is frivolous.

Cause what’s the worth without work?

When somethings worth it then bring it on cause I’m f*cking down.

Lemonade outta lemons.  Done.

Here’s to all dreamers.  Here’s to all those who keep communication channels open.

And to those who know that the world needs help right now, but still keep the smiles coming.

I commend you.  I’m on your side.

I want to learn patience that seems endless.  And love for myself that I can feast on.

Then share not only the recipe with my close ones, but also the leftovers.  So they can get a little taste of the good life….

see what it tastes like…..

Then serve em’ up enlightenment for dessert.

I heard it’s delicious, like chocolate Tres Leches cake.

Bib.

I see your light.

thank you.

Let’s grow!

I mean…..

Let’s Go!

Peaces everybody

and

one lover.

G

with out saying anything

my house is telling me to calm it down.

I can hear the wind chimes and the cat licking his fur coat

must have a little crush on a neighborhood cat the way he’s polishing his look.

I haven’t heard this place when I couldn’t hear it.  Does that make sense?

I have today and this empty space to enjoy, and I’m falling into the cushion

I’m about to leave for this epic journey soon.  The thought of not knowing what to expect makes me nervous.

Today is the day I have to share this peace and quiet.

I want to.

from here on out its “here we go” time……

Breathe

G

I’m building a new device

that blasts a thick beam into the sky

it’s designed to turn grey into blue

to dissipate the hang over that hangs over us

to clear up the you that’s in the way

to get your mind off your back

to show you that no matter what let’s make it better

it can be hard, especially when you miss it

when time seems short and all you got is your now.

This device could be the new Prozac

but organic.  I want it to work like a manager

when he or she posts the new schedule for their team

when a mother slowly rocks a crying baby

or when you write a love letter to the one who seems distant

This device comes from experience and knowledge

from honesty with yourself

It’s waterproof, torture proof, build solid like you, and can hold it’s own weight

Should be finished soon.

stay tuned

G